La Veille de la Toussaint
La nuit noire
Souffle du vent
Les feuilles croquant sur les pieds
Le temps froid
Tu vois la haleine
Les enfants trissonnent à cause de l'air
Les nez rouges
Bonbons dans les sacs
Les petites sorcières courent
Et près de la porte
D’un gris maison
Une citrouille brille de l'or
Et les luntins
Et les spectres
Et les goules
Dancent
Dans cette nuit
Dans la brume
Est quand nous célébrons
Le mal
-Emrayla Stardust
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Sleep Sweet my Love...
In my dreams
Late at night
You come to me
And hold me tight
I hold you close
You sing a song
And as I sleep
I sing along
"I miss you love
Your far away
But soon it’ll be
Another day"
I love you David
To an unquestioned feat
So please for me
Sleep sweet...
-Emrayla Stardust
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Love Eternal
The aroma of roses
As you embrace me in your arms
Soft night music lingers over the sea
An angel's touch
As you whisper in my ear
Babe we'll love forever
Under sun and moon
Soul mates together
Always eternal
-Emrayla Stardust
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I Remember
I remember the day you cried
It was all my fault
Cold tears ran down your face
And it was all my fault
I remember your voice
As you kneeled down on the floor
You looked like a child
And you wept all the more
I remember thinking
If only had I lied
And told of things only good to me
And never let eyes cry
If I had held it in
Instead of trusting her
I would have had my secretes
Instead of standing here
"I'm sorry Dad
I didn't mean it"
I meant for you to know
I'm sorry that I'm lying
But you really mustn't know
-Emrayla Stardust
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Control and Devotion
Limp like a ragdoll,
Will made of wood,
Helpless alone
Just like she should;
And he's got her on strings
Like a puppet,
And he's clipped her wings;
Trapped in a play
Made of scripts,
She dreams she's the hero
Of her master;
Puppet strings
Puppet strings
And like a puppet:
He's clipped her wings;
The puppet follows
The new painted road,
Leaving her family
And her homely abode;
Puppet strings
Puppet strings
And like a puppet:
He's clipped her wings;
Now she's lost
In a forest of green,
But her master tells her
It's not what it seems;
Puppet strings
Puppet strings
And like a puppet:
She's blind.
-Emrayla Stardust
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Granted Wishes
Freshman year.
Who am I?
I’m the one over there,
hiding in the corner
in the shadow of despair.
But when you look in my eyes
you didn’t see shadow.
You saw only sunshine
and I wasn’t alone,
I wasn’t alone.
So I sat with you
and I wasn’t alone.
Sophomore yeah.
“If only, if only…
the woodpecker sings,”
If I could have done that,
oh the pain, how it rings
because in my heart
I longed for you
and in my sleep
I dreamt of you.
But you were gone
and drifted away,
but as you went
I couldn’t help but say:
I’ll wait for you,
a practice not new.
But I’ll wait for you…
Reflection.
Ever have a moment
where all your dreams come true?
Except for one small aspect
that makes it all turn blue?
I did.
It was you.
And I didn’t know were I was right then,
I really couldn’t say.
I was lost in my own dream-world
finding hope another way.
Junior year.
Now finally gone,
your girl was gone,
that ache in my heart was gone
and you returned.
Oh sweet precious earth
worth all your worth!
I thought to the heavens
and sang to the earth:
So I’m turning so I’m turning so I’m turning ‘round the bend,
and I fly beneath the shadows and soar to heavens end.
And in the arms of another
here where you belong,
stare at the starlight
hear it’s great song,
stare at the moonlight
and feel love’s sweet song.
Of lavender
Of starry skies
Of roses red
And fireflies.
I sleep in peace,
and wake in dream.
-Emrayla Stardust
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Promises
You hold up your trophy:
Work done in half in hour.
Here it is!
You cry,
But no reply,
Because the party’s over,
And you weren’t there.
And I sat turning over,
Turning over in my bed,
Because you weren’t there.
But the work is for tomorrow, right?
We don’t need to fight.
But you missed the party in the den,
And I kept turning over, over
And the song kept singing over, over,
So where were you then?
-Emrayla Stardust
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Dead Senses
Screaming, yelling, crying…
to deaf ears
like smiling at a blind man
like crying at a dead man
they brush you off.
Pain cuts the throat
with each repetition
repetition
repetition
and a deaf man sings
and the scarecrow sings
and it’s all the same.
It’s a tape recorder
playing over, over
a broken record
as I am broken
Over and over
it screams its song
Over and over
it screams its song
Over and over
it screams its song
Crackling.
-Emrayla Stardust
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Sleep
Beautiful sleep.
A soft cushy velvet pillow
and a soft bed.
A sandman brings dreams of the beach.
And thru slumber,
our heads resting on sweet marshmallows,
gravity falls;
and we drift among the angels of the night,
and they sing.
Dreams are like stain glass windows,
meant for only us
And no one can see the blindfolds.
But roses still reach our nose
because that’s how the world goes,
and are hearts still strum like harps,
beautiful and melancholy,
because that’s how the world goes.
So why am I dreaming?
Maybe it is not a dream,
But a reality.
Eyelids close the curtains of our thoughts
and open doors for our mind.
-Emrayla Stardust
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Remember Chess?
I.
Check.
The black queen
--moves to her pray.
Dismay.
An ivory knight defends his kingdom.
Check.
The darkness moves in.
The castle falls.
Check.
The hero cornered:
Check mate.
And in a glance the child looks up,
I can never beat you Dad.
Blue eyes of ice look up,
and smile;
surrounded,
by the scent of old magazines
in the cave of no noise,
but the computer buzzing.
II.
7 years,
7 years of anger and tears,
all for him.
And what do I have?
Nothing.
Don’t pity yourself.
It’s bad for your health.
Keep walking
keep walking
keep walking.
The rain pores all around,
feeling the stench of the city.
One glance back then eyes to the ground.
If only I had felt more witty
as I entered that courtroom an hour ago.
when the eyes of ice started melting,
freezing my heart.
III.
Midnight:
A paintbrush
glides across the surface…of your form.
Two years since I’ve seen it.
Only a memory
of pain;
of tears;
of hate.
So why do I look at you
under the dim lamp light
with paints of green and blue,
and see…only a man,
trying to be a dad.
My eyes drift down,
down to the right,
where a small girl
walks by your side.
bucket held tight
tight in one hand,
as they walk to the beach.
and I pause
And in a glance a child looks up.
I could never beat you Dad.
Brown eyes fill up with tears.
I could never beat you.
-Emrayla Stardust
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Black and White
A scream of anger
at each other
You’re wrong, you know.
It’s devil’s play!
How stupid for you…
to think that way.
But the world’s not black and white…
it’s gray.
And the rich man scoffs at the poor…
and the poor man scoffs back…
I’m glad I’m not them, they say.
Tick tock, tick tock.
A chess game:
black against white,
good against pain,
and no matter who wins
it’s all the same…
Because the world’s not black and white…
it’s gray.
A small boy prays
on his knees,
asking for forgiveness.
Asking please.
But it doesn’t matter
in the church next door,
where he’s sinned
forever more.
Because the world’s not black and white…
it’s gray.
And a child’s told to grow up
but all she wants to do is play,
and a parent’s told to grow down
but she doesn’t know a way.
And in America,
the melting pot
will mix us all to gray…
-Emrayla Stardust
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Alone Again
And here I am alone again
lost in the tide of life.
So when will you come home again?
I’m home again,
but do I want this life?
Sitting at the box of knowledge
wondering who can hear;
I sit and ponder what it is
I want you all to hear.
Of who I am, of who I’ve been?
or just a simple girl.
Do I want the world to know
the sea shell or the pearl
If the pearl is tainted
with a seaweed twisted twirl?
-Emrayla Stardust
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Falling Through Time
Falling
Falling
Falling through time
Falling through pain
Feeling just fine
Feeling just fine
Nothing but fine
F is for forgetting you
I is for I love you too
N is for nothing to do
E is for every thing fell through
Fine
Fine
Nothing but fine
F as fiery
I as I’m
getting tired
of this grim.
N as nothing
nothing at all
E as everything
lost in the fall
Fine
Fine
Nothing but fine
Feeling fine
Lost in time.
-Emrayla Stardust
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My Head Pounds
My head pounds
As I type at my keyboard
Random words fly on the page
As I free my pain
Feeling fine
The words, they read
Too bad I read them
With a different heed
I once was told
That fine meant fine:
F’ed up
Insecure
Neurotic and
Emotional
I think that coves it.
Why does it hurt to free pain?
Why does it always cause rain?
Why do I feel so insane?
It’s no big deal
Life’s not that bad
But it is too me.
Feeling fine.
-Emrayla Stardust
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The Night Owl
Fingers on the key board
swiftly tapping, swiftly rapping,
like rain drops on a stormy night
they fly on.
Tick tock, the clock says
as tired arms reach towards the twelve.
It’s time for bed.
But here I am still sitting.
No time for bed.
Here I am still typing
with clouds up in my head.
Ignoring the cry
of the cold lonely bed.
Glowing words call me on.
Glowing pictures light the dawn.
and I don’t need the sun.
And I don’t need the sun.
As my soft cooing friend
begs me on.
-Emrayla Stardust
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What I Learned in Poetry Class
A poem a poem,
How do I start?
A gathering of words,
To explain the heart.
Oops, my old poem
needs fixings to start.
Take away the caps
but only where right.
No extra commas!
That doesn’t read right.
Try again:
A poem a poem,
how do I start?
A gathering of words
to explain the heart.
Now that’s better,
at least for a start.
Thanks Ms. I!
You taught me well.
Maybe now
I can learn how to spel!
-Emrayla Stardust
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The Pain of Truth
As I walk alone
Through a dreary hour
I feel a twinge
At the loss of power
Deep in the pit
In the pit of my soul
I know that from fire
Comes black as the coal
I know that from life
Comes death as a goal
The forest, it trembles
pain to the end
loved against loved one
friend against friend
The heros, they fall
as if made of lead
as the dreams of the dream world
join kings in the dead
What is our purpose?
On a blue painted rock
deep in the blackness
on fate’s endless clock
Lost in all time
In a moment, it stops
to hear those sad words:
In a moment…a life stops.
And it tears away
at least that’s what they say
as the pain in my head
knows you’re far away
So come home
please, come home
so that I may see you
I’m lost
And you’re leaving
and I want you to stay.
-Emrayla Stardust
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