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*If Only "If only, If only... The woodpecker sings, " If I could of done that, Oh the pain, how it rings, If I could have done this To change life around, If I could have made right When my mouth made no sound, When the sound all around Told me life was undone Why did I leave? Like the moon leaves the sun, Why did I fight? When the game was out won, Why did I cry? 'Bout what's already done; If only, If only, I could stand my own ground, If only, If only, My dreams could be found, If only, If only, Those Seeds not been sown, If only, If only... My life was my own; Through rising of moon Through rising of sun These words of ghosts Of plans undone They drift along Not far behind, They whisper there meaning Giving truth to blind, And in their clasp My heart is held And in my heart The truth is held, Through the bars I look to the sky And continue to wonder Oh Why! Oh Why! And the heavens seem to ponder And the starry sky seems to wonder As I continue to ponder: Oh Why, can't I? "If only, If only... The moon speaks no reply, Reflecting the sun, And all that's gone by..." -Emrayla Stardust *Note: Quotes taken from the novel Holes by Louis Sachar. However, since they were first written from memory, they are not 100%.		Fireworks Crash, bang, boom! The fires flare Orange, yellow, red; And gray. What a site! A fireworks display. All the eyes Look up in wonder An awesome site Booming of thunder They stand in aw Of what they saw At the fires Of orange, red, gray. A celebration! Fireworks are for, Liberty, freedom, Hope for the poor; But what if I fooled you? What if I told you This date has no four Crash, bang, boom! The fires flare Orange, yellow, red; And gray; While all look on, In hope, and pray... With one last hope: To make it...through the day. -Emrayla Stardust
	Nothing Matters It doesn't matter, Nothing matters; It's just another day, Just one more day, Then the beginning Of the days Of the many Called "tomorrow; Life goes on, Stuff goes on, But none of it matters; None of it conquers, As I'm still alone, And I'm still stuck home, And nothing matters; The dreams are gone, The hope is small, Only a glimmer Of making things right; Some day I'll make it, yes; But right now, What does it matter; I'm tired, I'm dead, And my heart feels like lead; I'm tired of running, I'm tired of walking, Maybe I'm trudging, But I don't care; Why would I care? Why should I care? None of it matters. -Emrayla Stardust
The Facts of Truth So what's the answer? That's the answer? Are you sure? Are you sure? So that's the truth Based on fact. That's the answer, But are you sure? Oh! According to that, Well that makes it fact, Of course if they read it! Of course if they said it! It has to be true; Accepted, Rejected, Reality, Actuality, Full of fidelity The solution is here, Imitate them According to them, Wrong, Right, False, Correct, All based On levels of respect I'm supposed to have faith? In these people, have faith? That's your opinion That's my opposition, Now what's your reaction? So that's your responseÉ You swear it be true, You'll swear till your blue, But how is it fact? Were is your judgment That makes it all true? I've search for the answer, The truth, All my life; What I've come up with Like blade or like knife Is sharpened every day, Is sharpened every way, So what makes your answer? A text book or two? Oh, I'm wrong? Why? Just because? Because why? You don't have an answer, Do you my friend? Yes, of course your sources Are a line without end, But do you think I don't know The life I've been living? Do you think I don't know The preaches they're giving? Now don't get defensive, Just get attentive; If your answer is law, Why does law change? If your answer is truth, Then were is your proof? If your answer is right, Why do we fight? So that's your answer... So that's the truth... But may I ask you one question... Are you totally sure? -Emrayla Stardust		What is Intelligent Life? I hate this world, This human world, I loved this earth But then came birth, And from this birth Took all it's worth, They gave, they took, They loved, they hate, They turned around And played with fate, They destroy and steel And all for a deal, They choose a path Then minds all seal, These are the hands In charge of earth? These are the creatures That are worth all worth? Yes, they invent They bring love And their dreams... But they forgot other life, As though it seems. Now answer one question And tell me no lie, It's about life But not on who die: What is intelligent life? -Emrayla Stardust
	The Door Opens A dark room Filled with shadows, A homely couch Of room it mellows, A picture frame To remember, A calendar Of time, Remember; Days Weeks Months Years Grow accustom To the tears, A sun beam Through the shades, But in a day That hope too fades; The dark is home, The dark is known, The dark is time, The dark is fine; A heavy crash, Light pores in, The door swings And sight's strung thin; The sting, Of eyes gone blind, Wanting to go back Too far behind, But this was desire Of light like fire A step, Then two, Out to the blue; Stumbling, Into the light, Stumbling, Blind of sight; Freedom to take Must follow its wake, The light is here, Why is there fear? Can't go back Can't go on The path is long And home is gone, One step, At a time, A pounding heart Keeping time. -Emrayla Stardust
Tranquil Pond To this place of tranquil Fly Where life bless The morning sky No brighter place Would angels lie Than by this pool Of time gone by The whisper of the dancing leaves The little brook of water breaths The singing of the birds of Eve's The calmly state of water reeds Water pools of velvet glass Flower leaves of skylight pass Dew drops on the fragile grass Of the water ripples 'las Heaven makes the time stand still Resting on a silver sill There it gives to natures will Captured by nor pen nor quill As the sun's No longer high Lift walked feet And touch the sky Turn just once To say good-bye Soon beauty fades With the sky -Emrayla Stardust		Demons' Torture Twisted weakness Worldly fate World of shadows Haunted hate Frozen darkness Bleeding light World of shadows Hidden sight Open gladness Silent pain Showing nothing Acid rain Folds of madness Cold of night Deepened torture Demons' fight Angel's darkness Silent wings Melancholy So she sings Padded feet Wind of hate The ghostly tread We dread too late. -Emrayla Stardust
	Who am I? Who am I? I'm the one over there, Hiding in the corner, In the shadow of despair. From were am I? Is that what you mean? I'm from a family With problems unseen. Oh, who AM I. Well that's a whole different game; I'm the one that's always different, Trying to look the same. Who am I... I'm a believer of dreams, A hope in the hopeless, And a seer of seams. Who are you? A believer too? Would you mock me, If I told you my side? Maybe you wouldn't, But maybe you would; That's what I'm afraid of, Maybe I should. So tell me your name, And even your game; And then you may ask me, Who am I. -Emrayla Stardust
Good-bye to the Past Night time Dreams, Danger Gleams, Days Years Smiles Tears The silent pest, Of sleep unrest, Cold smiles Warm tears A friend to stay, Gone away, A tearful glance Gone unnoticed, A mournful song Sung unnoticed, A silent battle Won unnoticed, Through the window Watch the rain; With these raindrops Leaves the pain, In sleep, Dance, dream In the day Day-dream Dance, Sing, Ignore the sting; Follow dreams, Of the past, Make this life, With love last; Bless the lord You are sane, This new life Has much to gain. -Emrayla Stardust		Dash for Time Tick tock, tick tock, Goes the clock The skin turns green: It's seven fifteen; Tick tock, tick tock, The small car slows The silence grows The mind counts woes; Tick tock, tick tock, Breath a sigh Gather bags And wave good-bye; Tick tock, tick tock, A silent gun Starts the race Start to run; Speed of a bullet Fly, fly, fly! Wishing to die No time to cry Spin the dial Watch it spin The metal swings Its evil grin Grabbing knowledge Weighs life down Slam the door With a frown Feet slap the ground The hall copies sound Heart's beat Pounding feet Speed, speed, speed! Heart in the lead Feet dash Dash, bash, crash! Tick tock, tick tock, Grins the clock Silence all around Body on the ground, And the weary heart Cries it's small sound. Emrayla Stardust
	Lost I don't know were I am right now I really couldn't say, Lost in my own dream world Finding hope another way; The maze is too confusing In this real world here and now, Not that it's a bad thing Just I found I'm lost some how; I'm searching for the key That will open up the door, To the dream that I've been dreaming of The world I'm hoping for; There is a certain bridge we cross To get to greener land, The land may be a jungle But our own is filled with sand; This bridge has many footprints Imprinted on it's floor, One's from friends and neighbors That don't need it any more; I try to find my footing On this path from here to there, But I find that I can not With out a gift that's very rare; So searching in the waste land A soul must find a soul, One that will look over them And make the journey whole; Hand in hand, through the land Two dreamers run in sand, And as they run the others look on They travel to green land. Emrayla Stardust
Lost Wishes Ever have a moment Where all your dreams come true? Except for one small aspect That makes it all turn blue? Ever have a moment Where you just want to cry? But you also want to smile So all you do is sigh? Ever have a moment Where your whole life turns around? Just with one small sentence Your whole world's up-side down? Ever have a moment Where the world becomes unreal? If you have I promise you You know just how I feel; Ever have a feeling That it's more than just fate, That brought you to someone Even though you are too late? The world is so confusing As it turns around, around; So all you do is thank it For the good things that you've found. -Emrayla Stardust		Welcome Friend! Welcome to my abode! Dear friend Dear friend Come take off a load! Dear friend Dear friend You've entered my mind! Dear friend Dear friend Where I unwind! Dear friend Dear friend Greetings, Bonjour! Mon ami Mon ami Here is my home, Come and see! Here is my abode, Come take off a load! In here lays my mind, Where I unwind! Greetings! Welcome! He de he Ho hum! Here is my welcome! Te he he Ho hum! Welcome all Éand enter some! -Emrayla Stardust
	You're Not Alone Fly, up above the sky. Believe, in the dreams, that fly by. The treasured gift is angels' lift. Broken wings, The weeping sings, The fallen sore, Hope, no more. The fire of a comet burns to just coal. What are memories but the keeper of dreams? Our future in memories so it seems. The fallen soar, weeping no more. Friends follow filling the hollow. Be strong: Embrace the sorrow. It takes faith to fly. It's ok to cry. But know: you're not alone. Know: We are here for you. -Emrayla Stardust
The Realm of Dreams She lived a dream, She ached awake, And in soft sleep, Chaos did quake. Her heart and mind Played tug-of-war, And soul as rope, Felt pain to its core. She wished to wake But did not wish, She thought she woke, But with mistake. And from misleads The mind's heart bleeds, The soul counts woes, Her heart took blows. She locked the door And thought the more, But the dream still came, And her own, the same. So she stayed in sleep, As she walked, as she wept, So that joy could she feel, Until it was real. -Emrayla Stardust		A Farewell to 2002 Another year gone away; a million moments are past today; 4-3-2-1, smiles and tears gone and done. Good-bye father, your storm has pasted; good-bye to thunder, may good days last. Good-bye step-father, gone without good-bye; the dawn this year you made us smile, but then you only made us cry. Good-bye old home, held in my heart; I'll always remember you were my start. Welcome road, to new future drive; a car changes code of being alive. A fond farewell, to days with friends; with hopes our days will never end. To new found friendships: grow stronger each day; To old friendships, that found a way. A prayer to Jana remember, and all those less a family member; to end the year with loved ones lostÉ a great price to pay for the cost. A fond embrace, to friends because of hope that grew, and love, that never was. 4-3-2-1, the glittering globe declares a new sun; the stars will set with a new year won; and the moon will reflect the days that are done. -Emrayla Stardust
	Breeze Blow By The breeze blows by And the breeze blows by And the sun goes high The birds fly high, Through the sky Silent angels fly, And the breeze blows by; And the breeze blows by; Old trees Sigh The sun begins to die, And the breeze blows by; And the breeze blows by; Singing through the rye The wind sails by, Reaching where the willow cry, Weeping willow, why? Why do you cry? And the breeze blows by; And the breeze blows by; Babbling river by The sea shore where the sea shells lie, And in the sand two lovers lie, As the clouds fly by The sun's rays die, And the breeze blows by; And the breeze blows by; At water's bed the sun may lie, As over green gray hills that sigh, A mother sings her lullaby: Oh angel sleep and do not cry As I may sing this lullaby, By cotton clouds the angels fly And sing to sleep this precious sky, Hear their there song and close each eye And in my arms to dreams you fly. Through window stares the starry sky, That whispers sleep to close each eye, And through the window souls do fly, Blowing through the dream filled sky; A sleep filled sky; An angels high; And the breeze blows by; And the breeze blows by. -Emrayla Stardust
I'll Wait For You Someone wants me to hold on to you I don't know who But it's true Every time I turn away Something turns me back to stay Why must I feel this way? I love you, I really do. You had someone, Your earth, your sun, And yet when the day was done You claimed She the sun But me the moon Now she's gone Your sun is gone That ach in my heart is gone Let one question in mind prolong: ...Will you kiss me in very long? You wait now I'll wait now I'll find a way to cope somehow I'll wait for you A practice not new, But I'll wait for you For one fair reason: I love you, I really do. -Emrayla Stardust		Angel Dreams Of Lavender Of starry skies Of roses red And fireflies Dreams of flying Souls fly away, To dance in the starlight Until the rise of day; Run in the moon light To the mists of dawn, Paint the sunrise To look upon; Feel the embers Of the start of day, The warmth of the sunshine Touching flowers of May; Oh, what a world, What a heart stopping world; Earth, water, air, fire, Feel its strength Feel its desire; The suns of aurora Set in the west, With a brilliant display They finish their quest, With a brilliant display They set down to rest; In the arms of another Here where you belong, Stare at the starlight Hear it's great song, Stare at the starlight And feel it's soft song; A beautiful silence, The moonlight, A glow, The crickets small call Then an owl forlorn, Hear the breeze whisper silence And soft silence is born; A soft blanket of stars Covers your head, As the moon bids you sleep, In a vine covered bed; Drift to sleep Under loves warm hand, Under soft caress Leave this land; And before you wake You have travel to make, Past soft earthy trees And a the pearl color lake; Here in your dream You'll travel away, To a moon covered beach To end on a day; Drift away, Drift away, And in dream Only dream Of places, far away; Of Lavender Of starry skies Of roses red And fireflies Sleep in peace, And wake in dream. -Emrayla Stardust
	Tremble Falls All is calm; The river flows; A steady wind, Slows, then grows. Something happens: The ground, it moves; The river twitches, The pounding of hooves. At a quickened pace It meets the falls, Tumbling, tumbling As down it falls, A pounding beat And down it falls. At falling end Earth's vibration, As it tries to calm The quaking sensation, Going in circles Down the river again, The river it travels As ink from a pen; Calm again, Calm again, A steady heart once again; As ruby veins breath again. The river's silent; for now. Till when...? -Emrayla Stardust
Poetic Prose A poem, a poem... How do I start? A gathering of words To explain the heart, The heart, the heart... What a glorious sound, As it beats each emotion And echoes each sound, A sound, a sound... Laughter to tears, Screaming to cheering, The passing of years, Years, years... The pieces of time, Where do you leave them? With treasures or grime, Looking back... Words let the heart go, Ready for a new bend Let the words flow, A poem, a poem... Now for an end... Follow your heart, And walk to the bend. -Emrayla Stardust		Diary of Poems Flipping through my folder A diary of dreams Of a time when life was troubles And little joys, it seems Of loved ones left And loved ones lost Broken hearts And heart felt costs I felt it all Hunger, pain All in a soul Trying to keep sane From hate for life To soul fought strife All in hopes For another life It was my home That folder, each day As I tried to find another way I wrote down fears And sadness and grief All in hope for a little relief The poems came And slowly went As pains in life Found a slow decent But I tried to write In good moods despite But joy poems make For a hard rythmed write So now they're just thoughts In a long rythmed day A pleasant remembrance Of what I fought for today So flipping through my folder I'll remember days because They give me hope by telling me What's better than what was. -Emrayla Stardust
	Silver Lining So I'm turning so I'm turning so I'm turning round the bend, as I fly beneath the shadows and soar to heavens bend, Fly away through the clouds, broken hearts are soon to mend, find the silver on each piece of cotton, from ground to heaven's end, Soar away, soar away, as silver time is hard to lend, every star has it's twinkle, every moon has it's bend, See the stars for what they are, bright to passion's end, but know our sun is the one that shines light around each bend. -Emrayla Stardust

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